i hate the nhs at the momment and change needs to happen

 hi everyone, this is my first blog.

I  want to start with how we are failing with the system.

I get it, the nhs is underfunded and they are in a tricky place with me…

But the thing is, I have been feeling very low for the last 4 months and no one cares about me when it comes to the bad system

I am not sure they truly get me when I flip out as they never see it.

 

How I get when I flip out is I get to a point when I scream so loud and get uncontrollable, it is not like me, I feel like I want to be violent towards everyone around me, but I want help, I do not want to be arrested.

 

The thoughts are so dark and they say just take promethazine but I don’t want to be silenced by some meds because there bank would benefit more from me suffering than me being happy.

 

Most recently I went to the hospital yesterday as I overdosed on vitamin d3.

Why does no one care about my mental health

I went to a &  e and they said it was not an overdose as such and tox base deemed it as non-toxic but the thing is, I’m mentally unfit. They say as I have 24/7 support at home with carers as far as social care they can not do anything as I do not fit the criteria

 

 

“ im begging you to come and pall me out the fire, come and save me “ song

 

  im stucck at the momment so you  will see alot of poasts                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    

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